sometimes i jux feel that in life it is jux so unfair...well i cant say im very and extremely considerate but i do care abt how others feel and think abt me...isnt it true that ppl judge u by ur way of handling things and ur behaviour?
been thru quite alot this year...first it was tonnes and tonnes of worries and fretting abt project...den friendship and more friendship problems....im beginning to see how ugly adult world is...is jux so upside down and not mature at all...im nt claiming to be mature...but have u ever encounter adults that are practically (nothing to say abt them sia) having such a big suck up attitude problem...they always think that they are right and yet they refuse to listen to wad others got to say...and the hilarious things is that many many of the adults in the world made up this kind...so far i have never seen a truely good adult that display righteous,caring and kind,big ambition yet humble with good upbringing...is that too much to ask for?there are plenytiful of traits that is revolving but wad i ux said is onli that little few....then again this pal of mine...
i thought we been thru so so many things...brave thru so hard handling relationship and many projects together...we pratically onli have each other to count on...yet...im doubtful against her...u may ask wad is the problem with me...becox sometimes talking to her is like talking to air...she wont give u a reply n refuse to tell u anything...so think how am i able to understand her?all i could do is jux be there for her and let her know im always there...i will be her shelter nt becox i pity her...becox i take her as a person more impt that myself...
she once told me things that her reaction might be...but sometimes i jux doubt so...sometimes she hurts me unknowingly n yet i still continue to smile at her...so now im jux saying i dun wanto be that noble anything...now that she has her own partner that will fork out time n effort for her...it quite a saddening thin when u treat others even more impt than urself yet on her blog she jux post a entry that say y do u keep asking n reminding me of him...when all i wanto know is her thinking her feelings and using strategies to make her happy...seemed like a lot of things have got unappreciated and left me hurt n i dun feel like walking down the road with her...
been bullied at work too...call abt 191ppl on the phone jux to ask the same question...but this is really nth becox all i wanted to get is experience...the main thing that irritates me is that my abilities are being doubted...so wad if i can finish the book in a day...does it matter?isnt is better?so it actually helps me at work and make life easier for the supervisor????i dun understand adults man...so shallow...first is they expect u nt to slack yet they acutally doubt u when u can finish the reading the book in a day when they didnt even finish half of it????life is jux so unfair...but i nv expect my life to get better...i jux wanto help others...those that really need my help...i would love to coach ppl..becox at the same time i will be learning from them too...learning goes two ways...my thinking may be like that for now so jux hope that when i grow up...these thinking will stay within me....
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