heart broken

wonder wad did i do to deserve that...really wonder wad did i do....all i did was to put in my best effort in everything and this is wad i get....y does things always turns out this way?????

2 members did the excel for listed company and i spotted 5 mistake. another 2 members did the SAME thing and i spotted 3 mistakes...and one of them said that TBS says is using ac receivable/365 i went to prove them wrong to go ask them flip to pg 102 to the textbook to prove TBS is wrong and all i received is that ....

Angeline still want to find the day's sales..in the morning ask me go read textbook den i will understand y is net sales/365! lol. help me tell hehr lah...will vomit leh...

i mean we are doing a project what's wrong with that????wad did i do???jux saying out the mistake and back up myself with enough evidence that others namely TBS is wrong....he is not the teacher!!!!!!!!!!!!! hopelessly sad....

bad day today

today has been a bad day...last night slp onli 3hr den today wake up at 6 to go to sch and finish the touch up for the report. in the end was late for the presentation...was marked doen by 10 marks...my heart hurts over that 10 marks..realli hurts..
and the techer was shooting alot of question to me as im the first speaker.end up using 4 instead of 2..although i did more parts...feel guilty to a member of mine as becox of time constraint he need to conclude can cant present all of his slides... really apologise for it...it has been weighing down on me the whole day...felt sad about it...

drop hints to my bestie and ended up the teacher treat her class nicer...so nth much to say..so far so good for results. 22.5/30 for bfin, 25/30 for blaw, 27/35 for efma....

really dun have a gd feelin for retail....feel depressed abt it..i realli tried my best effort...

today is not exactly a nice day

today my best friend was sick =(
but she still came to school and meet me anyway...poor thing...she felt like vomiting and also feeling cold...so she waited for my lessons to start den she went home...

did my retail thing till 4pm and today was suppose to go to bishan and get some formal for my dearest...we tried doin the SWOT analysis and also the survey...although one group member wasnt exactly for the survey...and at least i manage to complete it within a few hours...so not too bad...got rejected once so far so quite ok...

finally the saddest part of all...someone who cares and protect u should make teir words credible..instead he did the same thing jux like any other guys would do...and even went a step ahead...right now duno whether to forgive him anot...besides i got alot of projects stacking up so not too sure if i gt time to handle him..

today also met a junior...used to dote her alot...but there is this fateful day i saw her on the street with her friend...i went up to say hi and yet all she can say is she seen a ghost...tt was definately too much and too hurting...i even promote her as a chairperson before i left secondary school...so much so for someone u promote and doted on...thus from then on i NEVER talk to her again...
so continue with the story...met her at the escalator in my poly today...didnt know that she came to this school too...i cant believe i smiled at her...how stupid of me...and again all she can do is jux show me that shocked face...n didnt even say hi again...

the past.....

sob sob...woke up at 11am today becox slept late ytd...first time woke up so late..since poly year 2 always wake up at 8am..love having breakfast with my best friend..always have it with her on every mon n tue...and thur we will have lunch together...enjoyed the times with her very much...miss her quite a lot eversince we separate our own ways...my school management is this year 1 with be in same class...year 2 all different courses...sadly im in different course with her...but consolation is that im in the same class as my bf..

remembering the times so much that we did everything together...do projects jux need the two of us in the group sure everything goes well...so far she is the onli one that can partner with me and i feel good with doing things with her...she is so smart and capable...want her to be happy too...

recently i know she is suffering from heart break by some jerk...kinda two timer her like that..isnt being with someone u love the happiest thing on earth?y do he still wanto think of some other gals when he is with her already?arent being loyal and true the way to find happiness? sorry but im not baised against guys but y do guys react this way?find new gals always...

im judging it like this becox i suffer the same heart break as her...

back to her,she is so lovely and i realli feel that she is a princess herself...always so helpful and i feel that she dun deserves this..cant believe i still doubt her...i feel so stupid unable to forgive myself...maybe she jux cant find a way in her heart to tell me all that is kept in her heart...she feel better blogging it...that's how i find out things abt her...a pretty big blow to me...hope she will talk to me like how she say things out on her blog ....

am i a friend?

now then realise this best friend of mine is so sad...i know she still hasnt gotten over her past relationship didnt know it was that bad...reading her blog makes me feel i hasnt been a friend enough what more abt a best friend?i always promise to be beside her and will always be supporting her...right now really feel like giving her a hug...dry her tears...let her know i will always be there...realli want her to tell me everything...but it's better for her to blog it out...no wonder always feel that she is a bit distance from me..always wondering what is she thinking of...given my character, this stage i will natrually guard against her...but now come to think of it abot stupid...she will be protecting me n not hurting me..y should i guard against her...it's so bad to her la...felt guilty...