hurt by a relationship

sometimes i jux feel that in life it is jux so unfair...well i cant say im very and extremely considerate but i do care abt how others feel and think abt me...isnt it true that ppl judge u by ur way of handling things and ur behaviour?

been thru quite alot this year...first it was tonnes and tonnes of worries and fretting abt project...den friendship and more friendship problems....im beginning to see how ugly adult world is...is jux so upside down and not mature at all...im nt claiming to be mature...but have u ever encounter adults that are practically (nothing to say abt them sia) having such a big suck up attitude problem...they always think that they are right and yet they refuse to listen to wad others got to say...and the hilarious things is that many many of the adults in the world made up this kind...so far i have never seen a truely good adult that display righteous,caring and kind,big ambition yet humble with good upbringing...is that too much to ask for?there are plenytiful of traits that is revolving but wad i ux said is onli that little few....then again this pal of mine...

i thought we been thru so so many things...brave thru so hard handling relationship and many projects together...we pratically onli have each other to count on...yet...im doubtful against her...u may ask wad is the problem with me...becox sometimes talking to her is like talking to air...she wont give u a reply n refuse to tell u anything...so think how am i able to understand her?all i could do is jux be there for her and let her know im always there...i will be her shelter nt becox i pity her...becox i take her as a person more impt that myself...

she once told me things that her reaction might be...but sometimes i jux doubt so...sometimes she hurts me unknowingly n yet i still continue to smile at her...so now im jux saying i dun wanto be that noble anything...now that she has her own partner that will fork out time n effort for her...it quite a saddening thin when u treat others even more impt than urself yet on her blog she jux post a entry that say y do u keep asking n reminding me of him...when all i wanto know is her thinking her feelings and using strategies to make her happy...seemed like a lot of things have got unappreciated and left me hurt n i dun feel like walking down the road with her...

been bullied at work too...call abt 191ppl on the phone jux to ask the same question...but this is really nth becox all i wanted to get is experience...the main thing that irritates me is that my abilities are being doubted...so wad if i can finish the book in a day...does it matter?isnt is better?so it actually helps me at work and make life easier for the supervisor????i dun understand adults man...so shallow...first is they expect u nt to slack yet they acutally doubt u when u can finish the reading the book in a day when they didnt even finish half of it????life is jux so unfair...but i nv expect my life to get better...i jux wanto help others...those that really need my help...i would love to coach ppl..becox at the same time i will be learning from them too...learning goes two ways...my thinking may be like that for now so jux hope that when i grow up...these thinking will stay within me....

things jux happen that way

have been crying jux now...was hurt by a love one...but i will be ok...received my results liao...not too bad.. but gpa still low...hoping to get good grades...haha...in fact i was very happy to get back my result...i feel that i scored well...i worked so hard for it...den again dearie's result was not bad either...his gpa is back to how it was...clap clap...happy for me...but we quarrelled over it last night..

so many things happened...jux called to find out from nyp human link to see if there is any job avaliable for me...wanted to work really badly...not becox of the money...but jux to kill time...so indirectly im jux saying im bored...imagine if i get a job i have things to do and not so bored and IM EARNING MONEY!!! killing two birds with one stone...so nice..but somnetimes ppl jux think im crazy...who would wanto work if one can relax and stay at home and play games...maybe im jux dull....sobbies...

been wroking for onli 3 times but earned $112 le...guess i was some easy money bah..all i did ws be confident that's all...can u believe it?

ok back to nyp human link...i chose to work in asianmall,survey,researchplus den DBS...hope one of these will entitled me to a job...pay wise is $5.50 for asian mall, $6-15 for surveyor, researchplus i forgot le den DBS is ermmmm.... sry onli can remember is week end job...ok got it... the pay for DBS is $6 before training and $10 after training so i really wonder wad do they mean by that...

life has been pretty hard on me...but nv will i complain becox i have been thru the worsest...but my worsest is considered fortunate by some other ppl.. they are really hard up so i guess they really do deserve smth better...life cant be always so unfair...lalalala...and dun ever think im that noble! i also want ppl to be concern and care abt me too... but somehow i feel that i have been losing myself for these few years....being is kid is still always better... strange phenomen all ppl that been thru wad they think is hard they will wanto be a kid...lol...sighhhhhhhhh.....

emo

someone is always not fail to stress me out..duno y...sobbies...always like that de...sob sob sob...y like that one sia...sigh..stress stress stress.....nvm...she is no harm nt a threat...

jux celebrated my birthday few days ago on 31 aug...went out with my bestie...n jan of cox...i gt a new swiss watch n a mp4 oh! although duno how to use...T.T sianed...sad that so little ppl remember my birthday...but nvm...it's ok...

had a nice lunch for bday over at fish and co at amk hub...and den received nice nice present finally the lovely n most beautiful birthday i ever received...the cake tasted nice plus appearance totally 100marks...played pool again later on...but it was well spent with 2 best people in my life..


today ma...almost gt knock down by vehicles for a few times...was in a dazed...troubled by the present n past....psychological barrier..so best nt to ask,probe or talked abt it...was drenched today too...heavy rain...went to walk in the rain although gt umbrella...

kkz tt's all for today...nid to slp early n prepared for work tml...at 9.45am tajong pagar...hope wont be late..